I am musing about randomness because of the weird thing that happened today. Not really weird, but a thing to ponder. I never know how to behave when coworkers do things to help you. I usually stay in my cube (see Rule #1) and don’t interact with the humans (see rule #2). We are however, supposed to be putting together lists of things that we are supposed to use in Head Start every day. I had no idea where this mysterious list was or how to get it. So, my coworker who I have been blantantly tiptoeing around (not something I do well) and avoiding like the black plague, actually came to my rescue. She provided me a list and then helped me put together one of the toy boxes as well as giving me her extra toys. It was a moment in kindness that I just don’t understand. I was pretty sure that she was avoiding me as much as I was avoiding her.
We had a gigantic meeting yesterday, and of course that involved me sitting in a room with 30 people and trying not to jump out of my skin all day. When we were finally able to break for lunch, I ended up at my desk trying to recoup because I was completely over stimulated. This same coworker told me that I needed to be back in the meeting room, but I couldn’t. I needed five minutes to defrag. And so I was taking them. I told her that I was over sensitized and needed to just sit by myself for a minute, got an odd look and went on. It was an odd little moment. So, I know the socially acceptable thing to do was to sit with my coworkers and be really excited about this “gathering”, but I’m not a gathering kind of person.
There are so many nuances of this office life thing that are WAY hard.
